I have great news for you. You are jacked up! Your life is not perfect. In fact, your life may very well be in shambles. Now own it.
Before you will ever get anywhere in the Christian life, you have to own the fact that you’re not okay and be able to admit that to others. In other words, I say this with all sincerity and gentleness, stop pretending. Sunday mornings in most places might as well be a masquerade ball—minus the dancing…lest someone sin (low blow, sorry).
I say it might as well be a masquerade ball because we have a tendency to pretend we have everything together. I’m okay. You’re okay. We’re all okay. See how much we’re smiling? It’s exhausting to pretend everything is well and good when in reality we’d like to just break down on someone and tell them how difficult parenting is right now, just how hard it is to love my spouse because of what he did, that my job is drawing me further away from Jesus and I don’t know what to do, etc.
I’m hoping to model this for my church. Part of leading well, I think, is being as transparent as possible without jeopardizing the position God’s given me. And why would I keep quiet after all? Why would you keep quiet?
If I’ve been forgiven, Psalm 32:1-2 says I’m blessed! My sin is forgiven (literally in Hebrew—it’s carried away). My guilt is no more. The only person continuing to penalize me for my sin is me if I keep quiet about it and let it eat away my vitality.
That’s what verse 3 is getting at: I kept silent and my bones wasted away. Why do we continue to waste away in silence when freedom and life are but a confession away? Seriously, answer it if you can. The only thing I can come up with is that we’re scared.
I get scared what people will think of me if I come clean. Will the church welcome me back if they know what I’ve done? What my kids did? How my wife betrayed me? If you’ve had these thoughts or anything similar, I have no doubt that as David writes, God’s hand is heavy upon you (v.4).
God is leading you to get vocal. He’s pleading with you to talk to someone, to take off the mask and be who you really are, namely, a sinner saved by grace and continuing in faith.
How long will you keep silent? You are forgiven in Christ, sealed with the Holy Spirit, loved unconditionally by the Father. What can anyone do to you? Embrace the you that God loves right now.